Chapter 2:002: -Burdened By The Past And The Present
"(_____)-ah, is everything okay there?" Nichkhun Oppa's voice brought me back to reality.
"I.. I don't know anymore, Junsu. I mean, he was my first crush. We were young and I just couldn't let go. But then you came barging into my heart. I don't know if I can think properly anymore. Just, let me think. I've got to go now, Junsu." I then quickly walked up to Nichkhun Oppa's bike as he started the engine and we rode off.
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The moment we reached home, I dashed into my room and slammed the door shut.
"Is anything the matter, Nichkhun?" I heard Umma's voice and the sound of feet climbing the stairs.
"It's nothing, Omonim. She's just stressed from school." Nichkhun Oppa replied as I then heard him going into his room and shutting the door.
Another day, another problem arises.
'The real Junsu, he, is in love with the girl named Jung (_____).' The last phrase that he said just kept replaying in my mind.
I wanted to believe him, I really wanted to.
But after all the years the of knowing him, it has become difficult for me to trust a guy like him.
What am I to do now?
Who do I choose?
Nichkhun Oppa, my first crush?
Or Junsu, the one who made me realize love hurts?
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Days had passed by quickly and I could tell Junsu was not getting any better at accepting my fiancee as part of his life or mine.
"Are you telling me that your dad forced you to? Or was it your choice?" Junsu whispered as the teacher continued his lesson.
"You know how my dad is."
"Come on, this isn't a game, okay? This is marriage we're talking about! Don't you have anyone else that you like? Don't you have a life of your own?!" He hissed.
"Why should you care? As far as you're concerned, you'd be glad that I won't stop you from your 'Parties' every night. Enough said, Junsu, I know who you really are and you're not the type whose heart would change over a simple girl like me. So stop acting like you care." With that said, I grabbed my bag and calmly walked out of my class.
"Yah!" Junsu shouted as I heard him catching up behind me.
He grabbed onto my upper arm and forced me to turn back but as I did, I slapped him across the face.
"Don't, okay Junsu? Just, do whatever you always do on a normal basis, but without me." I stared at the ground.
"(_____)-ah. Why are you doing this to me?" He held the red mark across his face.
"Me? I should be asking you that. Aren't you already happy? What? Is it not enough? Do I have to live overseas now? Tsk."
"What are you talking about? Didn't I confess to you already?"
"Yeah, you did and I can't believe I almost fell for it again. So now you're gonna start using the old 'I LOVE YOU PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME' method like the other time when I almost wanted to run away from home because I started liking a guy. You're seriously going to pull that stunt on me again? Psh, I won't believe that even if my life depended on it." I gave him one last glare before briskly walking to a nearby restroom.
Did I just tell Junsu what I think I did?
Did I just tell him to stop playing with me?
Oh my goodness, (_____), what is wrong with you?!
Why on earth did I have to go and blurt out whatever that is on my mind?!
Me and my stupid mouth.
I went into a deserted restroom, and slid down the door as my tears began to roll down.
What a great way to shoo your current crush.
What if everything he said was true?
How much more idiotic can I be?
[[Junsu's POV]]
Tears began forming as she walked away.
Was I really like that?
I..
I basically used her back then and now I'm trying to get her to realize that I'm really in love with her?
Which human would fall for it?
Wow, I wonder how (_____) could actually stand me and my personality.
But, I remember back then, she had confessed that she liked me, more than just friends.
Although she did, I was still with my clique so I decided to reply with a, "What?! Which humane person with a right mind would fall in love with an ugly duckling like you?!"
I regretted it, and if I could turn back time I wouldn't change what I said but instead I would just add it with, "Well then I must be really inhumane, because I fell in love with you."
I knew then and there that I had chosen a difficult path in order to get your love back, but back then I had no idea you had an arranged fiancee, who happened to be your first crush.
If only I knew, I would not have said what I had.
I would have brought you home everyday after school, and make sure that you get to school safely.
I would have tried my best to steal your whole heart, instead of hurt you more.
I would have done a lot of things that I would probably not, only if it was for you.
Now I am the one who is hurting you and I know it would be difficult for you to believe my words, but I would be willing to wait for you even if it takes forever.
Just wait, (_____).
I'll try my best for you.
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+Flashback+
"Yeobosaeyo?"
"Yeobosaeyo? Junsu-sshi, this is (_____)." She spoke.
"Ohh hello~! And how many times have I told you not to be so formal? Just call me Oppa~" I whined into the receiver.
"Uhmm,I'll just call you Junsu since I don't know you that well yet and you are just a few days older than me. So, am I disturbing you?" She asked.
"Aniyo, waeyo?" I countered.
"I can't sleep. Do you mind keeping me accompanied for a little while?"
"Sure, just go ahead and speak your mind. If I start to bore you then you can put down the phone." I replied.
"Okay then. Well, have you ever thought of how you will meet your true love and know that she is the one whom you want to spend the rest of your life with?"
"No, not really. You?"
"I have. Firstly, I would be sitting under the stars at the beach. Then suddenly a cute young boy comes up to me and asks me to follow him. He would lead me to a really big cupid fountain which is covered with decorations and carnations, and at the back of the fountain will be where my true love would be standing, waiting for me in a tuxedo. He would turn around and sincerely smile at me with a 100 roses in his hands. And on each rose, he would write a reason why he wants to spend the rest of his life with me. After giving me the rose and having dinner under the bright stars, he would walk me home, saying that he wants to make sure that I arrive home safely so that he would be able to sleep soundly at night and await what he can make of the rest of our lives together. Isn't that sweet?"
"Y-yeah, of course it is."
"If you don't think it's sweet you can just say so, you know? It's not like I'll hate you for not agreeing or anything." She chuckled on the line.
"It's not that it's just--" I got cut off as the sound of her mum telling her to sleep was heard through the phone.
"Sorry, I gotta go. I'll talk to you soon. Bye~!" She hurriedly put down the receiver.
".. It's just that I hope I can be the one who would be your true love.. Not anyone else.. I like you, (_____)-ah, much more than anyone could understand.."
+END FB+
I wanted to say it to you, but you didn't ask me what I was going to say, so I thought you had forgotten about it.
The next time you asked me was when I was with my clique, the same day you confessed to me.
And the time where I rejected you.
Why did everything have to be this way?
Why couldn't I have been your one and only true love whom you were arranged to get married to?
Why did I have to make things so complicated?
If it was not for that phrase I said to you when I rejected you, I am sure we would have been together already.
But my personality took the better of me, leading us to this complicated moment.
If only you knew, (_____)ah.
If only I had the courage to confess to you earlier, way before your arranged fiancee came into our picture.
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Chapter TWO~~~~
Sorry it took a long time to post this~!
I really didn't know how to end this chappie so I had difficulties.
Yeahp, here it is~!
ENJOY~~~~~~!!!
